The Reason

The Reason

I will not grasp for the purpose in my son’s death. I will not try to find the meaning behind his passing. Though I’m confident that Christ’s glory and redemption will have the final word, it feels futile to ponder the particulars on this side of heaven. The eternal...
Bold Groaning

Bold Groaning

When Christians speak about suffering, Romans 8:28 often rises to the surface: “We know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” The pull towards this promise should come as no surprise. It’s a...
Rising Hope

Rising Hope

The classic hymn, “Great is Thy Faithfulness”, has been cherished by many since its composition. Its chorus is based on Lamentations 3:22-23, verses that resound with abrupt hope in the midst of alarming affliction. The same section of  Scripture has also earned the...
Buried

Buried

When someone in your family dies, you’re immediately confronted with a host of suffocating decisions to make. Choosing a burial place is one of them. Many of us have to navigate this at some point, either for ourselves or for our loved ones. But there’s a unique...
Nativity Sorrow

Nativity Sorrow

This is our second year stumbling through Christmas without our son. His ornaments and empty stocking hang in our home and convey our aching: we remember Eli proudly and we miss him terribly. The weight of grief is compounded by the reality that there’s not much space...
Gratitude and Grief

Gratitude and Grief

Last year, as we awaited our son’s birth and death, I refused to be thankful. I was able to recognize the good things God had given us in the storm, but I did not let my acknowledgment lead to appreciation. There were several reasons for my refusal. As a new father,...